He will hold my heart for all eternity.
His beautiful heart stopped beating at 11:05 pm.
I am grateful he was never too old to hold my hand.
I am grateful for his beautiful smile and his gigantic heart.
I'm grateful for the incredible way he loved me as his mom.
And that I got to be his mom.
I would take 17 years of having him, and have to give him back
To his Heavenly Father,
Than a lifetime of never knowing him.
I am grateful to have witnessed his adventurous spirit
And the way he lived life at full throttle.
I am grateful to have witnessed the way he loved the babies in our family.
In any family.
He just loved.
I don't know how we move beyond this moment.
But I know that we will.
Because Heavenly Father's plan is not about the here and now.
It is, oh, so much bigger than right now.
I will honor his beautiful life by living my life
The way the Lord has asked me to, and cling to the promise
That families are forever.
Because it isn't something I hope for.
It is something I know to be absolutely true!
Oh my beautiful Hayden Robert.
I already miss everything about you.
Rest In Peace Buddy.
Until I get to hold you in my arms again,
And see those beautiful eyes and that incredible smile.
My heart will never be the same.
