I never knew how much love a heart could hold, until they called me mom

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Oh! And THIS!


I waited all day to be able to post THIS one!
Yes!  This happened tonight.
Tallin and Janae are getting married.
 
Don't mind the picture of a picture.
I couldn't be there to take it,
so a couple awesome friends stalked them!
(Not really stalked, Tallin DID ask!!! haha)
More pictures to come!
 
I can't even begin to express how happy I am about this.
I knew it was something special the first time he said,
"MOM!  So, there's this girl."
I have wanted nothing more than for this sweet boy to meet the one.
And the moment I met her...
clear back, last week...
I knew he was in love.
The forever kind!
 
No details yet on dates.
Tallin has a very exciting few months coming up.
He graduates, will move back here to go to work with his dad and brother,
and will be gaining a wife.
While I gain a new daughter.
The easy way.
 
Welcome to the family Janae.
I am so very excited to see what the future holds for you both!

And then there is this....

There is simply so much going on that it makes my head spin a little bit!  Why'd these kids all go and grow up on me at the same time???  It's like we don't have one of anything... except babies, we only ever had one baby at a time... but now these kids are having kids at the same time, together, one right after another.  As if that could ever be a bad thing.  It's just that I foresee life forever being crazy like this.  FOREVER!  Isn't that the greatest thought in the entire world!

In case I didn't mention it before.  Grandbaby #10 is due this month.  The 22nd is his exact due date.  His dad, Josh, thinks it would be kind of cool to wait until the 25th and be born on his birthday, in the same hospital 20 years later, delivered by the same doctor.  It's a possibility, since Kinzee is seeing the same doctor, and delivering in the same hospital that Josh was born in.  But I think Kinzee would be more excited if he would come earlier.  Like tonight or tomorrow! 

We will call him something other than his number.  Although #10 isn't a bad name.  It's just that we aren't officially announcing his name yet.  Even though his initials are all over his room.  I'll make that announcement after we see his chubby little face in person.  They tell her he could be a big baby, and his ultrasound pictures really do show chubby cheeks.  Just the way any respectable baby boy should be!!!  A friend told us that since #9 was 9lbs even, that #10 should be 10lbs.  Kinzee isn't so sure about that!

While the pregnancy has not been uneventful, there were a few scares.... Kinzee has done surprisingly well and we are all looking forward to this little man's arrival and can't wait to welcome him to the family!

We miss Kassi



This is the reason everyone misses Kassi!  She's fun, and she does crazy things, and makes messes, but everyone is happy!

Sometimes I leave her in charge and I come home and find that she has made a fort with chairs and blankets and some plastic stuff she had in her truck from work.  And the kids are laughing and happy and the house is destroyed and I can't do anything but take pictures.  And laugh with them.  Then demand that SHE is the one that cleans up the mess.

I love this girl.  I love that she is happily married and that she gets to live in Hawaii.  But I miss her so much.  She is so much fun.  She always makes me smile and I hate that I have to be so far away from her!  The kids all miss her too!

Win, Lose or Draw...

We did this!
A dream my dad and I always talked about...
Going to a Cowboys game.
From the time I was a baby,
I watched the Cowboys with my dad.
The first year, I would sleep on his chest as he cheered on his team.
It really didn't matter if they won, or if they lost.
We liked it better if we won,
but he always said it was the Cowboys, win, lose or draw.
Willie kept telling me we should just go to the game.
An impossible dream.
Jace started looking into it and told me that it really wasn't impossible,
that in fact, we could make it possible.
One day, the idea was just a dream.
The next day, we had flights planned and tickets bought
and I was trying to find clothing that would keep me warm enough to handle
being in the wayyyyyyyy below zero temps that were happening in Wisconsin.
 
We flew in to Minneapolis late Saturday evening.
Stayed up all night visiting my brother and sister in law.
Left at a ridiculously early hour Sunday morning.
Drove to Green Bay.
Stood for the entire four hours we were in the stadium.
Because you cannot sit down during a play off game.
Especially when that game was between the Cowboys and the Packers.
Drove back to Minneapolis.
Stayed up the rest of the night visiting with Shiloh and Joy again,
and left at an even more ridiculously early hour
to catch our flight home.
Who needs sleep anyway?
It's overrated!!!
You can always sleep...
but you can't always make memories like this!
 
They lost..
They were ROBBED.
Even the really obnoxious Packers fans in front of us said that it was a catch...
But it really didn't matter.
It was the experience.
It was the game.
It was being there with my Cowboy's loving sons,
and with my dad in my heart.
This memory was for you Dad.
I hope you got to be there with us!!!!
 


Wednesday, April 8, 2015

What a way to wake up!!!!

We never really got used to Hawaii time...
Which wasn't a bad thing because it gave us more time
to enjoy the absolutely beautiful sunrises.
 
The first morning I woke up at about 4:30am.
I kept telling myself to just go back to sleep,
until I realized I was IN HAWAII!
And we were only a block away from the beach...
And we could watch the sunrise!!!
 
It was the most amazing, beautiful morning.
It was so peaceful.
A cute old man sat fishing on the dock.
He didn't speak English, so we didn't understand what kind of fish
he was catching. 
But he looked like he knew what he was doing.
There were several others out with us,
watching as the sun came up,
and the surfers coming in with the tide.
 
We finally decided it was time to get something to eat.
Thayne joked that he had seen an IHOP and asked if I wanted pancakes.
I told him yes...
Because I had seen a cute little place called Eggs and Things.
If there is something I miss the most about Hawaii...
It's THAT place, and THOSE pancakes!
Okay,
I miss the beach, sand, sun and water...
but THOSE pancakes were something SO wonderful!
We ended up going back there every single morning except one.
Funny that I lost 2 lbs eating like that on vacation!!!
I'm sure the miles we hiked didn't hurt.
It's a great trade.
Eat amazing pancakes drenched in coconut syrup every morning,
hike up beautiful trails and see amazing scenery,
and lose weight!
 
What a way to start out the day!
 
 
 


Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Going places we've never gone...

I'm going to be honest.  Our family is more of a 'fly by the seat of our pants' kind of family.  We aren't big on making real long term plans.  Or maybe it's that we are impatient and when we want it, we want it now.  I'm not sure.  But we've all got a little gypsy blood running through us and when we jump, it's usually fast, and hard!  You know, like marrying Thayne within 2 months of meeting him, or of him asking me to marry him on our first date.  Those kinds of things!  The fact that Kassi had made some plans to be married all the way in June had every one in the family teasing her about being the run away bride.  Would she or wouldn't she?  That was such a long way off.  The fact that Chris is stationed a few thousand miles away was also an issue.  She missed him.  I didn't blame her.  Thayne and I still don't do well apart.  Our kids seem to be the very same way once they fall in love.  That's a good thing!  But she started hinting that she wanted to get married.  Sooner.  And in a far off land... using the excuse that housing would be easier to get in March than it would be in June, or some silly thing like that!  She also hinted that she really wouldn't get married without me or her dad, so what did we think of going to Hawaii, say in 2 or 3 weeks, and just do this!  Her dad didn't faint, not really, I mean he didn't actually pass out.  He just looked a bit... spooked! 

We leave the kids.  On dates, sometimes 2 or 3 days... but never this long, and this far away.  We have friends that want us to go on cruises with them, but we haven't been able to commit because we aren't really sure we want to be that far away from our little ones.  But this was different.  We couldn't let her elope without us.  She insisted that we be there.  So Thayne spent a few minutes (hours) on the computer looking at flights and rooms and kept asking me questions about how or why or when.  I finally told him to just DO something and quit stressing me out.  It didn't help that for the past 3 years I have been really struggling with PTSD after Noah's really traumatic birth, and the thought of being gone that long, that far away brought me to near panic mode.  But I had been working extra hard on that, working through the emotions, and he finally bought the tickets. 

Can I tell you what an ordeal that was to pack for us, and haul Kassi's extra baggage too???  We laughed when we got there and later found out her new father in law had also brought luggage full of shoes for her!  Good thing we love her!  I have re-evaluated the way I pack and next time I will take a couple of outfits, several swimming suits and a skirt to go to church in.  That's it.  That's all.  I WAY over packed last time.  It's a bad habit my girls and I have.  I do believe next time everything will fit in a carry on with room to spare!  And there WILL be a next time!  I intend to say that I never went to Hawaii until 2015.... but then I went 5 times that year!!! :)  I will be taking some kids over in the next few weeks to visit.  And I CAN NOT WAIT!!! 

They picked us up at the airport in Honolulu and we slowly made our way through traffic trying to get to our hotel by Waikiki Beach.  Once we were checked in, we just decided to park and walk, explore the stores and the beach, put our feet in the water and walk along the beach.  From the moment I got onto, and then off the plane, something changed in me.  I relaxed.  I let go of every fear I was worried about.  I realized that I can't spend my life worrying about what will be, I'm just going to take it as it comes and savor the moments as I can.  And enjoy we did!  We had so much fun people watching.  There were so many people there, from so many walks of life.   That weekend would the huge Honolulu Festival and people all over the world would be participating in the huge parade.  Which made it even more fun. 

We ate dinner at Jimmy Buffett's.  Probably the best tasting macadamia nut crust maji maji.  It haunts me even still.  It was amazing!  Best place in the world to kick back and enjoy the scenery.  And people watch, because they were everywhere.   And then we walked, and walked, and enjoyed the scenery so much.  Stuck our feet into the ocean and enjoyed the beauty of it all.  I wanted to experience Hawaii.  To see the sites and enjoy it all.  And we did!  The first night was perfect. We got to get to know Chris better.  The first afternoon we got to do a little site seeing, relaxed and got ready to try new things.... and over the next 8 days, try new things became our motto!!!  I have never been so relaxed in my life.... oh to be there now!!!

Day 1 complete, and not nearly long enough time to go...

It's been too long....

I think I will attempt to catch up... Or just go forward from here.  I haven't decided yet.  I just know that I have missed being here.  I've missed just documenting what is going on in our lives... and I even hear from a kid from time to time that they miss me doing it also!
 
Life has been busy.  Crazy.  Crazy busy.  Just busy in general.  I don't think it is busier than it has been in the past.  I just feel like maybe I am not as equipped to handle the crazy like I used to.  Or something.  Who knows, maybe it's just because I am getting older, life is sometimes overwhelming and I find myself exhausted some days simply trying to keep up.  It probably doesn't help that our internet has been out more than it has been on in the past few months.  We changed providers.  It's helped.  Mostly!  We are also homeschooling Kalli and Hyrum through a distance learning program that keeps them on the computers several hours during the week, and me trying to figure out how to keep them entertained and moving forward towards their goals. 
 
We have had babies... another wedding, another baby on the way (not me, I am loving being grandma these days, and that's plenty!) and a reception and graduations coming up.  And maybe even one more wedding before too long, if we are lucky.  We'll have to wait and see. Also managed to get a fun vacation to Hawaii, including an elopement, the reason for the vacation in the first place.  I'm even looking forward to spending more time on the beach in Hawaii, thanks to that elopement!  Life is mostly good.  There are some sad parts, some exciting parts, some tiring parts... but all those parts just make up life.  It's the experience.  It's what the experience is all about.  I have found myself trying to remember that life is to be enjoyed, not just endured! 

I am excited to catch up!!!

Colten Charles

Kimi and Matt welcomed their third baby on January 30th.
He is grandbaby #9, and weighed in at 9lbs even.
and absolutely beautiful!
He is adored by everyone already!