4 down... 5 to go!

I am always amazed,

though I shouldn't be...

how I fall so completely and madly in love

with each new child.

From the moment I know it's there,

I am so completely amazed and thrilled.

It is all brand new.

There is nothing ordinary about the miracle of life.

Sometimes I feel such an overwhelming sense of gratitude

that it brings tears to my eyes.

I wonder at times how it is possible to live with so much joy.

To listen to the heartbeat brings a thrill I cannot describe!

I always wonder at the heartbeat.

Today I heard it said

that the heart is the first organ to start working,

and the last one to stop...

that is what I think about when I listen to this child's heart beating...

that this miracle,

this tiny heart is beating.

Maybe it is because I remember so well the pain

of not hearing a heartbeat last year,

that the thrill of it now is overwhelming!

I was told that this child is a gift,

and that I should rejoice in the gift,

because it will bring our family so much joy.

It already has.

Great joy!

So much joy that I fear my heart will burst sometimes.

The pain of loss

seems like a distant fog now.

I am not sure I will truly breathe until I hold this baby in my arms...

but it is true that after a trial of your faith,

the miracle comes.

And the joy in that miracle is completely indescribable!

I believe in miracles.

The miracle of a beating heart.

The miracle of love...

love that grows,

and becomes so much greater than you ever imagined.

4 months down...

5 to go!